Going back to training.
Once I recieved my first degree black belt in my Tae Kwon Do school, I took a break and ventured off into Muay Thai. I trained for nearly a year. Then I was struck with vertigo, which has seemed to nearly completely clear up now. For now.
I was down and out of the martial arts world for a painstaking year… I felt absolutely useless. It might not sound very long but to me it was an eternity.
During that time, I became extremely depressed, fearing it was permanent and that it would ruin my life. I also had some relationship troubles too.
I was stuck in a rut for a year, and recently I was reminded of something from one of my friends:
I am a black belt. This symbolizes more than just physical skill. It symbolizes discipline, confidence, strength, character… and I am supposed to be setting an example for other people in my life. This pitiful feeling sorry for myself is no way to do that, or to be a leader. I feel so ashamed of myself!
So I’ve decided that I’m going to go back to my old Tae Kwon Do school, and continue my training there again.
I read recently in a few articles that once one recieves their first black belt, they feel as if they have mastered their art, or they take a break after training for so long. They hit a slump.
For you black belts out there, you know this “mastery” isn’t true, and that the first degree simply marks the end of the beginner cycle. The surface has finally been scratched open for you to see some the larger world.
My break is over. And now that I have somewhat healed up, I will resume training as usual. I hopefully will have some videos and pictures of training to post soon. :)